I am beginning to think 2021 has it out for me.
Just when things are getting better something knocks me down. Maybe all the stress from the pandemic, working at home and feeling completely isolated have finally come to a head. On top of my mental struggles, my body continues to revolt.
My foot is still not 100 per cent (although it is much better), which contributes to a bunch of other issues with my tired, old body. I really want to run my race in September but honestly I was little happy to hear Powderface was cancelled this year. With all my ups and downs with training, I wasn’t sure I would get enough mileage in to not have a terrible race.
Sleep has not come easy to me lately. No doubt that plays a staring role in my frazzled mindset. Whack studies show that the older you get, the less sleep you need. I don’t believe in that crack discipline. I know I feel like a million bucks when I have a solid sleeping schedule. The more I sleep, the less I look like a freaking nightmare.
I feel so heavy and gross that I move like a complete blob. When I set my running schedule for the week, I am determined and motivated. Some days I feel fantastic then other days it is a struggle to put one foot in front of another. Today I couldn’t find my mojo as I tried to run around Nose Hill. I ended up walking in the end.
Bad days. We all have them. Lately though I feel like I am having more than my share of them. Anyone want to trade days? I get so anxious and worked up about work and my future that I stress myself out. I am trying to figure out the meaning of my life – so to speak – that running can feel trivia at times. Know what I mean?
I hope this post wasn’t too much of a downer. Sometimes I just want to use this blog as an outlet to express my thoughts. Don’t worry I will get back to my usual adventures. I am looking forward to an upcoming long weekend where I can try to boost my spirits in the mountains. Crossing my fingers that it doesn’t rain too much.
How do you get out of a funk? How is your 2021 going? I would love to hear from you in the comments below.