Once upon a cloudy day, I sat on my floor wondering what to do next. I finished my taekwondo class. I cleaned my apartment and did my laundry. I organized my books and papers. I recharged both my phone and camera batteries. I rang a few friends. I answered emails. I made a to do list for the upcoming week. But what to do right now?
I’m one of those people who can’t sit still. I need to always be doing something. I read. I study. I write. I take pictures. My mind is constantly in overdrive. Multi-tasking is one of the strengths that I list on my resume. I am always on the go. I can’t relax and take it easy. I always feel like I should be doing something. There has to be something that needs my immediate attention. Otherwise I am just being lazy or unproductive.
Believe me this drives me crazy. I wish I weren’t so neurotic. Maybe I have undiagnosed adult ADD. Shawn, my younger brother definitely had ADD when he was younger. But can adults develop it so late in life?
Maybe I should try meditating. I should practice some sort of relaxation techniques. Friends have told me I need to slow down. I wish I could.